you and its you

1.00 am  i'm still awake
1.01 am  you're in my head
1.02 am  i'm think of your eyes
1.03 am  i smile
1.04 am  i try to sleep again
1.20 am  you're still in my head
1.30 am  get out of my head
1.40 am  i'm still can't sleep
1.50 am  i'm think of your hug
2.00 am  i'm tired
4.00 am  you you and you
5.00 am  you're still in my head
6.00 am  you're in my heart
6.30 am  i finally fall asleep
7.00 am  i get ready for the day


When i wasn't talk to you for just 2 days or even a day or an hour..
it feels like part of me was missing...


it is not same without you. missing you badly ;( 

This long distance is

killing me.

Now the minutes feel like hours
And the hours feel like days

you're so far.

I wish that you were here with me...

but

its so hard.

yaa, i know

its so hard.

(~_~)

nothing

just talking to  the moon

in hopes u're on the other side

talking to me too

SEMOGA

Da malam

M

A

L

A

M

Waktu Tidur

T

I

D

U

R

Tapi...

jaga diri

jaga diri

jaga diri

(--_--)

E

X

A

M

2 hari lagi

semoga sihat

badan, akal, minda

semoga dan semoga dan semoga

SEMOGA

A.M.I.N

23.33 waktu Msia

sambil merenung langit Edmonton

dengan penuh doa dan harapan

Syafakallah ya habibi~

i like u, s0 i need u.

I like you, so I need you 

[quoted from My girlfriend is 9 tailed fox korean drama]

*dubirubirurappa dubirubirurappa dubirubiru dubirubiru dubirubiru* 

(OST drama berkumandang)

saya tak independent sampai xmakan kalau xde org nk teman pg cafe
saya tak rajin sampai asgmnent menggunung baru huru-hara nk siapkan
saya tak pengemas sampai barang2 (ic/lesen/duit) selit2 ntah dimana2
saya tak pandai begaya sampai pg pasar main sarung je apa yg ada
saya tak penyabar sampai yg xbersalah pun turut dipersalahkan
saya tak kuat ingatan sampai RM50 selit dalam buku TITAS tapi cari dalam buku falsafah
saya tak kuat sampai kereta tersadai tepi jalan pun menangis
saya tak pandai berjimat sampai makan meggy je hujung bulan
saya tak bandar sampai kt BBC Food Garden pun makan pakai jari
banyak lagi "saya tak.." yang saya boleh letak.

tapi mmg Allah jadikan saya tak sempurna.

saya bersyukur dgn apa yang saya ada.

cuma saya mengharapkan insan lain tidak kecewa dgn kelemahan diri ini.

tapi jangan pula berhenti berharap kerana

saya akan terus berusaha menjadi yang terbaik.

::: Hari ini saya banyak berfikir

mencari sudut mana yang perlu diri ini perbaiki

supaya diri ini layak menjadi

yang terbaik dihatinya 

~____~

Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way
Insyaallah
Insya Allah we’ll find the way

Aku ingin menjadi...

Aku ingin menjadi orang pertama yang kau lihat di waktu pagi dan terakhir kau lihat diwaktu malam

Aku ingin menjadi insan yang kau sebut namaku dalam doamu kerana dalam doaku kusebut namamu

Aku ingin menjadi pendampingmu, kisah terindah dalam hidupmu, dan bahagia bersamamu

Aku ingin menjadi titik terang dalam hidupmu dan jawapan dalam setiap keraguanmu

Aku ingin menjadi alasan dalam setiap hari bahagiamu, ubat penghilang kepenatanmu dan pendoa di saat kau kehilangan arah hidup

Aku ingin menjadi orang yang kau perkenalkan dengan penuh rasa bangga

Aku ingin menjadi orang yang kamu sayang, kamu cinta dan kamu tangisi ketika aku pergi meninggalkanmu

Aku ingin menjadi insan terbaik yang dipilih Tuhan untukmu

Aku ingin menjadi orang yang menghapus air matamu tika kau disakiti olehnya

Aku ingin menjadi orang yang setia mendengar keluh kesahmu dan selalu menemanimu di setiap duka dan lukamu

Aku ingin menjadi insan yang bersyukur kerana memiliki hatimu

Aku ingin menjadi seseorang yang sangat bererti dalam hidupmu

~ (,")('.') ~

oh my love,diz 4 u dear ~

I remembered the quote from the movie and yes, it’s true. The Moon even lingers up till noon when the day is very sunny. But it would not even appear on a gloomy rainy day when the Sun is hiding not showing himself. So I started to have this kind of imagination and fantasy about the Sun and the Moon.

For me, I always think, the Sun as a male as it portrays the Masculine features of strong, bright but sometimes could be very vulnerable. The Moon on the other hand is the female, with endless beauty, very serene to look at but could be very lonely. They made a very good and perfect couple, like it was destined from Heaven.

Have you ever thought that the Sun and the Moon are actually lovers? Why not?

I mean because the Sun and the Moon are just like Adam and Eve. Without the Sun, the Moon will never exist to us as it only reflected the light from the Sun. So did Eve who was made from Adam’s rib, created to fill the spaces between Adam’s fingers. What a lovely couple the Sun and the Moon are, just like how lovely Adam and Eve were. Both couples were created in Heaven to shine upon all the mankind. It’s just that the love of the Sun and the Moon existed much longer before the love of Adam and Eve and their love persisted until today.

If the love of Adam and Eve is brought down from one generation to the next and the love breed filling every corner of the earth from the seed of love of Adam and Eve, the Sun and the Moon is different. Their love existed from the beginning of the world till the Day of Judgment and it will never change and it will never breed. Human’s Love blossoms from loyalty but can be full of cheat, treacherous and bitter to each other. But the Sun and the Moon always loyal to each other since the dawn of time up till now. Their love just never fades away like our love. That is the true power of Love.

Sadly, the Sun and the Moon live in separation. Never be able to live together like we did. No matter how strong their love is, they are not destined to be together in this lifetime. The Sun will appear on the day to shine on the mankind but the Moon can only appear in the night to entertain the heartbroken ones. One day the Moon said to the Sun;
“Oh my Love, you shine on the humans and made them happy for the rest of the day, and I will entertain them and give them a sense of peace and happiness in the night while they are making love, but truly I am lonely myself. You are never in my company. Will we be able to hold hands together like the human did?”

And so the Sun replied;
“Oh my Dear, I’m not trying to shine on them, but rather I’m shining my love on you so that you are not lonely. My light will make you glow beautifully and your beauty will make every eyes of the girls filled with envy and jealousy. We live in a world apart but I will always shine my love for you forever until The Lord Almighty bring us together in the Heaven.”

The Moon is satisfied with the answer but never content with it. She loves the Sun so much that it is unbearable for her to live in separation.

One day, the Moon thought to herself, my heart must never falter and I must be strong in order to be with the Sun. From today on, I will linger on the sky until morning just to see the Sun even if it’s only for a while. The Moon was trying to show and prove her endless love to the Sun. So she stays every morning until noon just to have a brief moment with the Sun even her light is never the same as the night time. Her beauty is fading by the morning and she is sad that she cannot show the Sun her beauty. Even both of them appear on the same morning, they can only look at each other from a distant. They can never be closed enough to hold hands or to embrace each other tightly. Even so, the Moon was very happy because they got to see each other. Sadly for the Sun, he can only see the pale face of the Moon starring at him every morning, not that brightly glowing and the beautiful Moon.

So the Sun asked the Mon;
“Oh my Love, why do you look so pale and sad?”

The Moon replied;
“Oh my Love, I’m sad because I can’t be with you and above of all, I’m pale because you are shinning so bright. You showered me with so much love that it caused me so much pain just to think that I’m not with you.”

The Sun is confused so he asked the Moon;
“Oh my Love, do you want me reduce my love for you so that you can light up the morning sky with your glow and smile?”

Listening to that, the Moon said quickly;
“Oh my Love, Never. If you don’t shine your love on me then I will forever be in the dark even at night and the scar on me will never heal.”

So the Sun and the Moon continue to live like that. The Sun will shine the earth every day and when the night comes, the lonely Moon will try to cast the loneliness of the humans away. They got to see each other every morning and then they’ll be separated again. So the Moon is becoming greedier. She longs for the Sun every moment and watching him from a far every morning is not enough anymore.

So, the Moon asked the Sun again;
“Oh my Love, If I can linger in the morning so bright, why can’t you do the same at night? If you are present at night, I can always show you my beauty.”

Hearing to the question, the Sun becomes clueless and don’t have the answer himself. He also wonders why can’t he shine at night. After giving some thought about it, the Sun replied;
“Oh my dear, have you forgotten the Words of Allah from the Holy Book of Al-Quran?”

So the Sun recited a verse of Al-Quran from Az-Zumar verse 5.

He has created the heavens and the earth with truth. He makes the night to go in the day and makes the day to go in the night. and He has subjected the sun and the moon. Each running (on a fixed course) for an appointed term. Verily, He is the All-Mighty, the Oft-Forgiving.

Listening to the verse, the Moon burst into tears and asked for Forgiveness from the Lord Almighty as she was trying to defy the rules of creation. Allah has made their destiny as so. She realizes that she could never be together with her beloved Sun. All she can do is to watch him from a far with pale, and sad eyes.

To ease the sadness of the Moon, the Sun then recited a verse from Al-Qiyamah, verse 9.

…and the sun and moon will be joined together (by going one into the other or folded up or deprived of their light).

“Oh My Love, there will be time when we will be together. Please be patient”,the Sun said.

So the Moon and the Sun has been waiting and waiting until the Lord Almighty wishes them to meet each other.

The Sun and The Moon’s love is a very tragic love. Loving each other but never able to be together. There’s always that kind of love in this life that will never be able to be together in this world and surely Allah will grant your love wishes in the Heaven. Fate is in the Hand of Allah and Destiny is Allah’s haq for his servants. There will be time when your love will be realized. If Dunia Cinta is not for you, then Syurga Cinta is waiting for you. Adam and Eve met in Jabal Rahmah after years of searching and Allah fulfilled their love wishes. Just like the Sun and the Moon. Their love is destined to be together on the Day of Judgment. Allah has promised in Al-Qiyamah, when the Day of Judgment occurred is the time when the Sun and the Moon will meet. Oddly for them, in the chaos of the end of the world is the time for them to be happy forever.

For the love that is never to be realized in this world, I’m praying to God to give us the strength to be patient until the love comes to realize in the Paradise full of Happiness. Just wait like how the Sun and the Moon has been waiting for each other from the beginning of the world until the End of the World. Whenever you are tired of waiting, think of how long the Sun and the Moon have been waiting.

Remember Allah’s promise to those who are patient;
And those who remain patient, seeking their Lord’s Countenance, perform As-Salat (Iqamat-as-Salat), and spend out of that which We have bestowed on them, secretly and openly, and defend evil with good, for such there is a good end. (Ar-Rad, 22)

(,")(''.) ~ 

D0n't Be Tension^^,PeaCe!!

Contr0l urself dear ~ :)

The moment u'r in Tension

u'll lose ur attention

Then

u'r in total confusion

And

u'll feel irritation

diz may spoil ur 'personal relation' ~ :,(

Ultimately

u won't get co-operation

And 

get things into complication

And

u may have to take medication

Why n0t try understanding the situation?

try to think ab0ut the solution

Many pr0blems will be solved by discussi0n

Which will work out better in ur pr0fessi0n

Don't think it's my free suggesti0n

It is 0nly for ur preventi0n

If u understand my intenti0n

u'll neva c0me again int0 TEnsi0N,dear~

juz MATH n c0m  left

d0 better than bfore

i kn0w u can d0 it!!!

Hidup perlu diteruskan~ (,")(".)

Nukilan : Nur Hikayat Pesona_thurs@19:19 wktu Msia~

Moga dirimu senantiasa dalam rahmatNYa...

Moga bersabar menghadapi apa jua ujian dan dugaan...

Awak,

Dalam Surah Az Zumar, ayat 10 Allah bgtwu kat kite:

“...Sesungguhnya diberi ganjaran orang sabar dengan pahala tanpa hisab.” 

@ "…Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang bersabarlah sahaja yang akan disempurnakan pahala mereka dengan tidak terkira".

"Kite xnk hdup lagi,kite nk mati,kte nk mati,mati...mati...xtwula wakk"

(12:23 pm wktu Msia/21 Apr 11)

 ~ nah!amik balik kate2 awk ni...kte xnk...~

(~_~)

Ayip,

Ingat smpai mati kata2 kite ni...

Kadang2 Allah patahkan semangat kita...untuk selamatkan jiwa kita..

Dia patahkan hati kita untuk membuat kita LEBIH BERSEMANGAT...

Dia memberikan kita sakit..supaya kita menjadi LEBIH KUAT...

Dia memberikan kita kegagalan..utk membuat kita rendah hati, tawadhu’...

Dia menghantar penyakit..supaya kita boleh menjaga diri sendiri...

Kadang-kadang segalanya diambil dari kita...supaya kita boleh belajar menghargai nikmat yg diberikanNYA...

Ini semua kerana kita adalah hambaNYA...buat selama-lamanya...

Dan kita terpilih kena musibah itu. Allah tidak tersilap.

Gagal...Kecewa...Hampa...

iye,tu ujian...musibah...dugaan...

Musibah ke ujian ke dugaan ke,

tu sumeeee.....

 Pahit di dunia manis di akhirat.

Yang pentingnya, Teruskan perjuangan...

INSYALLAH

KIMIA  tu ssh sikit je,

kire ujian jugakla.

xkan nk bg ujian sng2...

tu bkn ujian nmenye :)

awk kn hebat,

jgn mudah putus asa~

Allah xsuke...

kite lg xsuke...

chaiy0k3!!!(tiru gaye awk)hehe

hdup perlu dtruskan~

no title ~

Beberapa purnama yang lalu,

Aku sering bersamamu,

Memerhati kesegakanmu,

Menggenggam erat tangan hangatmu,

Menikmati suara romantik kata-kata manismu.

Kini kau telah menjauh,

Pergi mengembara mencari ilmu,

Berjanjilah dikau agar tetap setia,

Kerna hatiku,

hanya milikmu.

ah! merepek ! berangan ! sudahlah labu ! 

(demm!i almost crying while writing this down.mybe being alone for a long time [alah, br 2 hari,tu pun da ngengade] makes me a bit emotional today...) :,( 

gediks!   

wt asgmnent laaa....

Mybe im not good enough,at least im being myself...

setiap orang pasti mahu dicintai dan disayangi...

itu memang lumrah manusia..

memerlukan seseorang yang mampu memberi kekuatan pd kita

sebagai manusia ni...

tampak kuat.tp,lemah sebenarnya.

aku trut x lari dari berperasaan begitu..

ingin dicintai dan disayangi..

dari-MU..Penciptaku..

tapi,bukan mudah untuk menjadi kekasih-MU Ya Allah..

sebab aku semakin jauh dari landasanmu..

petua-petua untuk disayangi dan dicintai Allah:

"Sesungguhnya Allah mencintai orang-orang yang bertaubat dan orang-orang yang mensucikan diri."

[al Baqarah:222]

" Katakanlah: "Jika kamu (benar-benar) mencintai Allah, ikutilah aku, nescaya Allah mengasihi dan mengampuni dosa-dosamu. Allah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang."

[ali Imran:31]

"Dan Allah mencintai orang-orang yang sabar."

[ali Imran :146]

"Sesungguhnya Allah mencintai orang-orang yang bertawakkal kepadaNya."

[ali Imran: 159]

"Dan Allah mencintai orang-orang yang berbuat kebajikan."

[al Maidah: 93]

"Sesungguhnya Allah mencintai orang-orang yang bertakwa."

[at Taubah:7]

"Sesungguhnya Allah mencintai orang-orang yang berlaku adil."

[al Mumtahanah:8]

"Sesungguhnya Allah mencintai orang yang berperang dijalanNya dalam barisan yang teratur seakan-akan mereka seperti suatu bangunan yang tersusun kukuh." [as Saff :4]

Daripada ayat-ayat al Quran di atas, dapatlah kita simpulkan bahawa untuk menjadi hamba Allah yang dicintaiNya, kita haruslah:

1. Sentiasa bertaubat dan mensucikan diri (zahir dan batin).

2. Sentiasa melakukan segala apa yang diperintahNya (melalui RasulNya) dan meninggalkan segala laranganNya.

3. Sentiasa bersabar.
..sila ambik perhatian wahai saidatul radziah!..

4. Sentiasa bertawakkal.

5. Sentiasa berbuat kebajikan.

6. Bertaqwa.

7. Sentiasa berlaku adil.

8. Berjuang di jalan Allah dalam satu barisan.

Sesungguhnya cinta Allah itu tiada tandingan.

Ya Allah, kami mencintaiMu...

P/s: Hakikatnya,orang yang mendapat kasih sayang Allah, secara tidak langsung mereka mudah mendapat kasih sayang manusia...

I'm not supposed to LOVE you

I'm not supposed to CARE

I'm not supposed to LIVE MY LIFE

wishing YOU were there...

I'm not supposed to wonder

where you are or what you do

I'M SORRY I can't help myself..

cause..

I'M IN LOVE n MISS WITH YOU..

Duhai lelaki...

Di belahan Bumi manapun kamu berada. Bagiku kau kumbang, tak mampu aku samakanmu dengan kumbang terhebat sekalipun. Bagiku manusia adalah makhluk yang terhebat, terindah, tersempurna, dan tertinggi.

Bagiku dirimu salah satu dari semua itu. Jangan pernah biarkan aku menatapmu penuh, kerana ia akan membuatkanku mengingatmu. Bererti memenuhkan kepalaku dengan menginginkanmu.

Berimbas pada tersusunnya gambarmu dalam tiap dinding khayalku. Membuatku inginkanmu sepenuh hati, seluruh jiwa, sesemangat mentari…

Kasihanilah dirimu jika harus hadir dalam khayalku yang masih penuh lumpur. Kerana sesungguhnya dirimu terlalu suci.

Berdua menghabiskan waktu denganmu bagaikan mimpi tidak berhujung. Ada ingin tetapi tiada henti. Menyentuhmu merupakan ingin diri, meski ujung penutupmu pun tak berani kusentuh. Jangan pernah kalah dengan mimpi dan inginku kerana sucimu kau pertaruhkan.

Mungkin kau tak peduli. Tetapi kau hanya menjadi ar Rijal biasa di hadapanku bila kau kalah. Dan tidak lebih dari lelaki biasa. Jangan pernah kau tatapku penuh. Bahkan tak perlu kau lirikkan matamu untuk melihatku. Bukan kerana aku terlalu indah, tapi kerana aku seorang yang masih kotor.

Aku biasa memakai topeng keindahan pada wajah burukku, mengenakan pakaian sutra emas. Meniru gaya para ustazah, meskipun hatiku lebih kotor dari lumpur. Kau memang suci, tapi masih sangat mungkin kau tergugat.

Kerana kau hanya manusia – hanya lelaki. Berilah sepenuh diri kepada  wanita suci yang dengan sepenuh hati membawamu ke hadapan Tuhanmu.

Carilah wanita suci, dalam rangkaian khitbah dan akad yang indah. Atau kejarlah sang wanita suci itu, kerana itu adalah hakmu, seperti dicontohkan oleh Khadijah. Janganlah ada ragu, janganlah ada malu, semua telah terukir di dalam kitab suci.

Bariskan harapanmu pada istikharah sepenuh hati ikhlas. Relakan Allah pilihkan wanita suci untukmu,

mungkin sekarang atau nanti, bahkan mungkin tiada sampai kau mati….

Mungkin itu bererti dirimu terlalu suci untuk semua wanita di dunia fana saat ini. Mungkin wanita suci itu menanti di istana kekalmu, yang kau bangun dengan segala kekhusyukkan tangis doamu. Pilihan Allah tidak selalu seindah inginmu, tapi itu pilihan-Nya.

Tiada yang lebih baik dari pilihan Allah. Mungkin kebaikan itu bukan pada wanita yang terpilih itu, melainkan pada jalan yang kau pilih, seperti kisah seorang wanita suci di masa lalu yang meminta ke-Islam-an sebagai mahar pernikahannya.

Atau mungkin kebaikan itu terletak pada keikhlasanmu menerima keputusan Sang Kekasih Tertinggi. Kekasih tempat kita memberi semua cinta dan menerima cinta dalam setiap denyut nadi kita.

~ Moga Allah berkati kita semua,insyAllah....(,")